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The first week of class was interesting! Breakfast is at 8 am and class starts at 9:20. My first class is Grammer and it last until 11:00 and then my next class starts 11:20 and is over at 1:00pm. Monday and Wednesday i got to a two hour pottery class, which seems like fun but after and hour i am ready to leave,

LastMonday we all took a bus to Walmart where i gotsome walking shoes and a few other things. Takening the bus is a lot cheaper then taxis but it is a rough ride! I was so tired after that. that night Neal, Ross, Tres, Jessica, and I went to a lounge bar called Utopia. Its really cute, it has white leather chairs, everything is white with black lights. Its but one drink get one free! So we figured that would be our regular place.

Tuesday we went to a bar called Tiki, where our friend Kyle was haveing a going away party. He had spent the last pring semester at ULDA, and was leaving that following morning! We played a game called Buddy ears,,,its a really fun drinking game that i will surly introduce to all my friends back home! We also found out that Tiki had a great drink special, 10 leters of beer and six appitizers for 300 pesos. (30 bucks) Between the eight of us its great deal! We finished the night at Utopia, were i got a margartia! yum yum yum

Thursday was crazy! It all started off with me busting my ass at the dorms on the tile outside. It just so happens that we were leaving to go to the bars! It had been raining and i sliped and rolled my ankle. It hurt so frickin bad, so i was like i am still going out, and I am going to drink alot so I wont feel how frinkin bad it hurts! We started with beer at Tiki, then Utopia for some Sex on Beach drinks. Our bartener gave us all free shots of tequilla, Jessica didnt take hers so Luara and I split it! then a few guys i knew from class walked into Utopia, and Cody (from Mississippi) grabed my hand and started Salsa danceing with me! HELLO with me broken foot! its was OK i couldnt feel it! lol Then we deiced to go to a dance club! OH MAN we had to walk like a mile, by then the tequilla was wearing off! Tres Carried me some of the way! We got to Club Bling, and started drinking Vodka and sprite! I think we broke a total of 3 glasses, because we were so far gone! lol Jessica met a cute guy from...

You want me to feel guilty for saying that i cant love you so

You try to walk all over me

You are the one who i dont know

You are the one that makes me scared

You are the one who makes me feel safe even when im nott

You are the one that tells me that you love me

You are the one that i love

You are the one who made me learn something

You are the one that showed me that all men cant be as perfect as you

You are the one that doesnt know me

You are the one that i feel comfortable talking to

But just because of all these things doesnt mean i can love you

Which i do.................................

But you have to earn my love just like i have to earn yours

So trust me when i say this i want to meet you

I want to be with you

And the worst thing is i dont know if you want me or not..

Love me

You know who u are....

OhmyGod! I'm in a "two-person" relationship.

I have to say it's scarying the shit out of me.

Steve seems so into me. And I'm not used to that.

He's already slipped into couple-mode and I'm torn between love and logic.

Logically we've only known each other two weeks and there really isn't any need to be exclusive. I haven't gone out or seen other people since I met him, and it's damn hard to think I need to keep this up for a while, especially with him being gone on and off for a while.

It's like I'm going back to when I waited for John for a year.

I think going out and hanging with different people definitely made me feel empowered and in control. Plus I didn't have to answer to anyone but myself. Now I'm responsible for someone else's heart and feelings. That's scary as hell.

I almost want him to just drop me like a dead duck. The bad part is that I was saying all this shit to him all evening yesterday about how I'd cope and then how I'd not be able to handle it if I lost him. I think it was a bit much and I ended up apologizing.

He was his perfect nice self. Said it was a two-person relationship and I shouldn't expect to be in control of everything. He's pretty awesome for a 21-yr-old.

K enough of this. Back to work.